I meet up with fast rising newcomer so:Stina to learn about her musical heroes. With songs initially debuted as an “experiment”, I feel that she probably has recorded what could very well end up as “a best song ever” and find my self rather surpriced when I learn that some of her real influences actually comes from the great area of British female pop. Enter the 80’s
You draw inspirations from British Music, who are your real influences there
The first artist that comes to mind is Kim Wilde. When I was 12 I brought home her album Love Moves – it was on a cassette tape at that time and it was from the library. It played non-stop for weeks – or more likely it was for months. I loved the emotions that she captured in her songs and her attitude. Still do. Blondie is another influence even though I haven’t intentionally listened to their music, but a few years back when I bought my first Blondie album ever, I discovered that I already knew a lot of their songs, without knowing the band.. And Dido. I like the way her voice is very natural I’d almost say neutral or naked sounding. She has this very straight forward way of singing. It’s simply honest and authentic. Other British artists I have been listening to a lot are Elton John, Queen and David Bowie.
You got a great cover for TONITE, tell about it
Well, one day I took a picture of myself using my webcam playing around with different looks and different effects on my mac book. You know, the things girls do… I just had my hair cut and did a few shots with it hair randomly (at least I made it look that way) and partly covering my face. And one of them ended up on the cover. It exhibits the attitude that we were looking for. And It’s got attitude… Revealing just enough to make people curious about that girl in black and grey scales covering her eye with a lock of hair and with a mouth that cannot decide wether to smile, kiss or tell you to f* off… haha.
Your songs are kind of bittersweet, but also with a lot of hope and joy, is that right
It’s spot on! I guess it’s sort of my thing. I sometimes attempt to write a happy and sweet song, because I want to show the world that I am a happy, openminded and smiling person most of the time, but it always makes me feel a little foolish. Like I am not being completely honest. And then I simply cannot finish the song.
So instead of thinking in terms of “happy and sweet songs” I am now thinking more in terms of “uplifting songs”. Being uplifted just means feeling a little better after having done whatever uplifting activity you have been doing. You don’t have to feel entirely happy or like celebrating all day, but you feel a little – or a lot – better than you felt before, which might still be miserable. But if miserable replaced suicidal, that’s good, right? Ok I can see that I sidetracked myself a bit there… Anyway, I like outlining the contrasts of life in my songs. These contrasts are reminders to myself that there are always two sides to a coin and that both sides are equally important. They support each other and are each others raison d’être.
The darkness makes light possible. You cannot be sad if you have never known happiness. The bittersweetness is a way for me to picture that. I find comfort in knowing that sadness is just the other side of happiness. Not worse, not better. That a feeling of loss is a natural result of love and having cared about something or someone. A lot of the suffering we experience in our lives comes from an attempt to either push away the bad things or try to hold on to the good things. The more we resist or grasp, the more we suffer because nothing is permanent. Nothing lasts forever. Nothing. Basically the best thing to do is to let go of all of our desires.
That way we can live in the moment and fully take it in an enjoy it. No expectations, no disappointments, just curiosity about what this crazy little life will bring us next. Back to me writing bittersweet songs infused with hope and joy, I believe that there is this inherent goodness in all of us, no matter what side the coin lands on.
This inner light – you can call it joy or love or God – shines even on the cloudiest day. For me writing about the clouds instead of the light is just a little more interesting. And to me writing about the clouds is just another way of writing about the sun. I see it as a recognition of our inner light when we dare speak, write or sing about things that hurt.
When I write about these things, it is not because some negative feeling has taken over, but on the contrary it’s because a part of me is holding on to a hope and a belief that my inner joy will be shining through again one day. If everything was completely dark I wouldn’t even bother to write…